For those who know and for those who don’t, my mom has always been my best friend. Since day one, she’s always been the person to protect me from all evil, just as a mother should, and enough to show me that she could be my friend as well.

We butt heads a lot, because we can be so similar yet so different at the same time. Praise my brothers and my dad for constantly putting up with all the bickering and arguing me and my mom have been doing lately. We are both strongly opinionated which can cause us to clash….a lot.

Although we’ve settled our differences, things still aren’t exactly the same between us and obviously I can sense the sort of tension. But today, I was very sick. I laid in bed all afternoon and slept, allowed my phone to just die, and I skipped our family meal. All of which, are totally unlike my typical day. So my parents pretty much knew, I really wasn’t feeling well.

I was laying down on the couch, partially there and partially not. Fading in and out of the surrounding conversations of my family. My mom sat down next to me, felt my forehead and said “How are you feeling, honey?”, words that I never appreciated as much as I did today. I didn’t act like it was a big deal and just fell back asleep.

I woke up and realized that she said that because she cares, and of course I didn’t think my mom hated me, but she was definitely not showing any kind of love or affection towards me this past week, so it truly hit me and meant alot to me, whether she knows it or not.

I wish we both weren’t so stubborn sometimes. I love my mom too much to have this kind of relationship between her and I. Hoping for a better future for the both of us. In due time.