I learn alot about myself every day. Some good things and unfortunately some bad.

But if there’s one thing I’ve learned of myself recently, it’s my power and willingness to forgive. I’ve never been one to hold grudges or stay angry for so long, ever. Life has become way too short, I know that sounds cliche but why hold that heavy burden in your head and your heart when you can just move on from it?

Last night, I became friends again with the girl who I did not intend on ever speaking to for the rest of my life. But it’s been recently where I’d ask myself why? We’re growing up, moving on from the past (well I am at least), and going on with our lives. I hate tension and the feeling of hatred, especially if it’s towards another person. I hate people feeling left out, and as tree-hugging as this may sound, I just like when everyone’s happy with everyone. I know things can’t always be the way we want them to, but I never have a doubt in my mind that every single obstacle that I will go through in this life, has a reason and a purpose. I’m slowly starting to find mine.

I will always have room in my heart to forgive anyone who’s ever hurt me, left me, made me cry. Because in the end, it truly made me a better person. I just wish that everyone could see it in the same perspective as myself, but unfortunately it can’t be that way. 

Ephesians 4:32 Be kind to one another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, as God in Christ forgave you.

I am truly blessed with an amazing family and set of friends because they are the ones who have created such a big heart in me. I love because they love, and I love because HE has always loved, even through the worst of times.

I guess you can say that forgiveness is both my strength and my weakness. Staying upset forever doesn’t do you any good and it sure as hell won’t make you any happier about the short lives that we pursue every day.

I tend to have these epiphanies, and it just makes me feel rejuvenated and refreshed about everything. I don’t regret the past or anything that I ever did wrong, but hoping for a better future for myself and my loved ones.